Unplugged

I never thought that I would deprive myself from facebook, wassap, emails, my phone, my laptop and my work place. These were so very necessary as the air I need to keep alive. But in the recent past my grand mother fell ill. We were told that she may leave us forever any time, any day...

It was very difficult to see a loved one die and leave forever in front of your eyes who actually wanted and deserved to live. For 15 long days we saw her in deteriorating health condition. It was then when I discovered that the things I felt so important were so worthless. And I unplugged myself and devoted all my time and feelings just for that person who had helped us grow and prosper. I discovered, she was much more important then the virtual relations that we strive for. I am fortunate enough to be with her during her last breathes which helped her detach smoothly. I took a long leave from the job which I have never done before. I really thank my senses for making a right decision and save me from a life long regret.

I got back and it's nearly two months now since my grandma left us...I cry out aloud still when I remember her. But life goes on and I am lucky to have a job that keeps me vibrant with the youth. I indulged into a new semester and subjects and got back to my plugged in life a little more than before to forget the sadness that surfaces now and then.

My studies regarding cyber security and laws unveiled so many different ways of misusing the online information. With great efforts after grandma I started having sound sleeps and now those efforts almost went in vein. I had sleepless nights thinking about the virtual world I have created around. And Finally one fine sleep deprived mid-night I cleaned up my entire web existence which was as pictures from my various life events. I am feeling so very light and private with the unplugged state of mine. Cannot completely unplug in the growing era of technology else I will be behind the ages and old :)

Learning: "Real is far more important than the virtual, Value it..And What all is virtual comes with a hidden danger, being safe is in our hands."

My favorite from - My notes to Myself

There is a part of me that wants to write, a part that wants to theorize, a part that wants to sculpt, a part that wants to teach... To force myself into a single role, to decide to be just one thing in life could kill off large parts of me.

My career will form behind me. All I can do is let this day come to me in peace. All I can do is take the step before me now, and not fear repeating an effort or making a new one.

- Hug Prather 

Gratitude VI (Ba-Dada)

We have been so blessed to be able to spend our childhood folded in the warmth of your love. It was you who told us stories which today enable us to fight our problems; it was you who had sung the wonderful lyrics to teach us the culture; it was you who made us understand the real meaning of protection and shelter. We now don't have those caring hands to catch us fall, that loving eyes which roll down tears when we are in pain but we have the lessons that you taught always in our memory. We have inherited the character and culture that you have imbibed in our being. You will always be alive in our actions and deeds...

Thanks for being there always and I am sure you are still there somewhere to be with us in all odds and evens.  

Gratutude - V (Hardik Shah)

My six year younger sibling. We had no single day without a fight when we were young. We were enough for each other not only to fight but also to enjoy the experiences of life together. I can never forget the bike rides on the road of Ahmadabad. He is my friend, philosopher and guide. He is the first person I call in case of all problems in my life. We have a stronger bonding each day amusingly contradicting to the strong arguments which we have against each other. We can argue and fight for hours with each other but no one else can dare speak any thing against the other one. In such a case we unite. Amazing relations....and the best is ours...

Will need you always.

Gratitude - IV (Friend list)

I will try not to miss out on putting the names on this list. In case I miss out I regret for that in advance. They are the everlasting relations I have earned through years.

Purvi: She is always there to care the emotional side of mine. She shares her wonderful experiences at the other side of the globe. She makes a point to call and just say hii once every 15 days. Some relations need no extra maintenance efforts. Ours is of that kind. Thanks for being there.

Hiral: She is the one who has always exemplified and imbibed the sense of responsibility. A daughter who has actually taken up and observed the responsibility of a son. Thanks for being a part of my life and teaching very important lesson of being a responsible person.

Shivani: Four years younger than me although, she has taught a new dimension of friendship. I can never forget the selfless gesture of being with me to the doctor cancelling the movie show with your fiance. It is very rare these days specially because we get very less time to spend with our dear ones. Thanks for being there and I will always count on you :)
Jay: He has always been a source to satisfy my intellectual needs. I cannot miss thanking him for the rich discussions we have. The facts and figures we share. The talkative walks we all have when he visits Gandhinagar. I have learned to love my work and to be sincere from you. Its a pleasure to have you in my friend list.

Gratitude - III (Bansi)

It's very important to find someone who is exactly like you to share your feelings and get an echo back with the same enthusiasm with which you are talking. Bansi is such a gift in my life. My friend form standard 8th, i.e., since 17 years. We have a same strange nature which rarely matches with the common girly nature. We need not go to the happy ceremonies of each other, like we have not been to each others marriage. But we can never miss out to be together in grievances.  We parted 15 years back due to our geographical locations but we never parted from hearts. Our relation don't need the connectivity. But when in need the other always senses and calls. It's strange but true. Dear Bansi you will always have a very very special place in my life..I will always cherish the memories of the boat ride, the horse cart ride, the scooty-activa rides, you driving car for the 1st time and hitting it to a pole right near my house. The all night long talks, the silly mistakes that we shared, the book reviews and importantly the bites that I gave you during the class hours....The dreams, the desires, the happiness and the sadness of life wish we keep on sharing throughout the times....

I am always there for you and will always need you in my life.

Gratitude - II (Mumma - Papa - Nirav)

I always have words pouring out of my mind somehow when I start writing but I just had tears when I think of what my parents have given to me....rather what not!

With no intimate blood relation my life partner is truly taking all the load of partnership every single moment. He is the ultimate husband in the world...It's not an exaggeration that he has been my mom and dad when ever I needed them after marriage.

No vocabulary is helping me out to describe how incredibly they are a part of my life, the reason behind my existence and the only arms on earth so warm and soothing.....

Mumma Papa and Nirav, I just can say two simple words for all that you have given and are giving since years that define my life...

.My dearest Mumma Papa and Nirav from the bottom of my heart...

THANK YOU!!!